Well I've made it through what the coaches say are the hardest months of training July and August. To tell you the truth, it wasn't all that hard. Yes, the weather is at times, almost unbearable, but for me, it was all about time. I had the time to put into the training. It feels like now training is becoming harder. I've got work and school to contend with. I've got to figure out how to juggle all my responsibilites and not short anyone or anything. Teaching mommyhood, PTA presidency, and being a wife all have to compete with training. It is truly a balancing act. I am trying hard to stay focused and stay the course. That being said I have done some soul searching and discovered some things about myself. I am more determined than I ever thought I could be. I have never seen something of this magnitude through to completion. There are times when I am on those long runs that I just want to quit and walk it in. Somewhere inside of me, I find the will and determination to go on and finish it. That is amazing to me. I've also found that I need to not take things so seriously. This past Friday, Chad and I went out with some of his co-workers. We were having a great time and then went out for cocktails. I found myself thinking the entire time of the next morning's run. All I could think about was running on such little sleep. I was letting it consume me and not living in the moment. I need to sometimes put running on the back burner. I don't want to be a wet blanket. I want to have fun and cut loose. I guess it is all about balance. I am just so afraid I am going to lose my focus and lose sight of my goal. I've made a promise to myself to let a little of the "old" Yvonne back into my life, the runner in me will just have to keep her in check!
