Saturday, November 14, 2009

A Different Kind of Race...


Well all along I have said I wanted news and news I got. Connie, my wonderful nurse practioner at Dr. Wilson's office, called me yesterday morning on my way to school to let me know that my biopsy came back positive. I have ductal cell carcinoma, in other words, breast cancer. We do not know all of the gory details yet as the final pathology report isn't due back until early next week. My mom spent the better part of the day chasing down my medical records so that we can have everything ready to go when the doctors at MD Anderson come a callin'! I have family in town this weekend so this post will be short and sweet. I have lots to write down but need a few more minutes...

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Riding the Roller Coaster


So it's the night before my biopsy and I am so busy I can hardly stand myself. I was once told by a friend that God has a funny way of keeping you busy in stressful times so that your mind doesn't have time to really process all that is going on in your life. I figure that must be true because I feel like I am almost drowning in responsibilties. I can definitely say that these past two weeks have been such a roller coaster of emotions. I have had such highs and lows. It is almost like being nine months pregnant. By the time week 39 rolls around, you are so miserable, the fear of childbirth is gone and you are just ready. I feel the same way. I do not fear any news that comes my way. I just want news! I go in tomorrow for another bilateral ultrasound and for an ultrasound guided biopsy. My mom and Chad are both going with me. I would rather go alone and not make a big deal out of it, but they both feel the need to go with me so I am going to be a good girl and let them go, after all that is my role in the family, the good girl...

Thursday, November 5, 2009

It all Started with a Foot in the Ribs


Ok so I ran the half marathon last January and finished two minutes over my goal. Not too bad if I may say so myself! I continued running a bit here and there. I signed up for Katyfit again this year and even convinced my friend Sherry to join. Sherry had done a great job this year losing weight and training hard. I am so proud of her. She is going to smoke me on race day! I have had a harder time staying focused and dedicated. I guess since I know my body can do it, I am less opt to push myself. Never the less, I am up and hitting the trails most Saturday mornings. As I write this, I haven't run in two weeks but plan on making it there this weekend, ugh! However, a wrench has been thrown in my plans and now my focus is being turned to a different race.

Three weeks ago, Colin climbed into bed with us because his leg was hurting. I must make the note that he never gets in our bed (we have a couch in our room). He forced me to the edge of the bed because his feet were in my ribs. Due to the position I was laying in I hand my hands under my breasts and felt a lump. Fast forward three weeks later, a mammogram, an ultrasound and a phone call from the doctor, I am facing the possibility of having breast cancer. I have a small mass in my right breast and two suspicious lymph nodes. I am currently awaiting the radiologist to read my reports so that he can order a biopsy to confirm or deny the diagnosis. It is definitely a lesson in patience. We have made the decision (and I say we because it is literally a team decision, family, friends, doctors, nurses, etc) to go from the local Katy hospital for the biopsy to the breast center at Memorial City. This way all of my doctors have access to my records and I am seen at a place that looks at breasts all day long. That is all they do. So where are we now, you may ask? We are in a holding pattern. It is a roller coaster my friends. One day it is good news, one day it is bad news. I am at peace with any news, I just want news. Besides, I do look good in pink!